AWAKE
Awake in the middle of the night, I sometimes may remember snippets of Proust in translation. I also may tend to recall that forms and formats really are dorms and mere doormats. Eventual moments are likely to be more usefully instructive than other moments could ever be or might seem to be.
A platitude of course easily might be that I never actually am awake except relatively or perhaps something like nominally. I sometimes might wish to be vibrant and tuned-in, yet (since that never quite can occur or happen) I stay at least somewhat accepting of my multiplex degrees of somnambulism.
Ah, the sadness of being awake but not really awake is now hitting me, and even is hurting me almost profoundly. I'm very, very used to bumping into walls, furniture, and people, co-incidentally, but my being thus accustomed includes some very built-in senses of inadequacy.
The modern world, again of course?, has ways of seeming both blissy and horrific. (Is "blissy" a very splendid vocable, by the way?) Anyway and anyhow -- and in all seasons -- what am I to do but be offensive and noticeably defensive? For every living entity life must remain a struggle; or is that assertion way too large and general? Were I ever truly and hugely awake, might I not be able to cope divinely? Mere conjecturing tells me I overly conjecture. So asleep am I I barely may turn the slightest of thoughty corners. (Is "thoughty" a very real word, incidentally?) As I ramble here I also may be getting yoked to my own numbnesses; did the alarm clock ring?

Bruce I am feeling quite blissy after reading this as I have discovered that I am not alone in the universe being permanently half asleep. I am going to find a thoughty corner to contemplate this discovery.

Dear **Eunice**: Your lovely responding
provides me fine forms of absconding.
I soon may compel
both heaven and hell
to bring into play some bald blonding.

I really love your conjectures Brice. You have a thought for every quirky phase of life. Wonderful.

Jo x

Sorry - BrUce- not BrIce!!!!! Is this a ruse not to eat rice?

DEAR **JO**: Your quite jolly COMPOSING
has helped me compose betttttter dozing.
I now feel in touch
wiith manners of MUCH
respecting how 'style' is RICH OOOOOZING.